Yesterday was hard.

I was hungry.  Part of it was real hunger and part of it was stress and boredom hunger.

I kind of have it in my head that Thursdays are my “splurge days” since they’ve also been my rest days from the gym.

I didn’t eat anything particularly unhealthy.  In fact, other than my fair share of servings of Trader Joe’s Cheese Puffs, it was mostly chicken breast, almonds, fruit, and almond butter.  Plus, I tracked everything I ate in Weight Watchers so I feel good about that, but I definitely ate more than I needed.  In fact, I ate about 2500 calories and was left feeling pretty full by the end of the day.  Now, this isn’t a crazy high number or anything, and I’m definitely not concerned about it setting me back on my weight loss journey, but it is kind of interesting.

Looking back on my week, I know why I ate and ate and ate.  It’s because my past few days have been so low in calories!  I didn’t do this on purpose, but I’ve just been freaking busy and I’m trying to make my groceries (which I spent about a billion dollars on last week) last me until Saturday or Sunday, so I’m in full on food rationing mode.

Another thing?  I had sugar cravings on the brain.  I felt like pictures of baked goods kept popping up in my life and I WANTED SUGAR, so I might have overcompensated with healthy foods.

Pinterest can be quite problematic sometimes.

But, I’m determined to conquer my no added sugar goal, so I kept telling myself that tomorrow will be easier and the cravings will go away and I will be able to continue on my journey without the devil brownie on my shoulder telling me to go eat some gooey, fudgy, under baked chocolate goodness.

Jeez, I’m really not helping myself here, am I?

So this post has kind of been all over the place (what’s new, right?) but the point I wanted to get across is just that, yes, some days are hard.  For everyone.  But that doesn’t mean that it was a “bad” day or that I ruined any of the hard work I’ve been putting in!

I firmly believe that a person’s actual diet is just one part of “healthy eating.”  The other part is intention.  If a person is eating an outwardly nutritious and well-rounded diet, but they’re doing it because of an unhealthy desire to look a certain way, that isn’t healthy eating.  That’s disordered eating.  On the contrary, if a person is eating a diet that includes pizza, Oreos and Top Ramen in addition to their fruits, veggies, lean proteins and healthy fats, but they’re doing it because it makes their body feel good and their soul feel happy?  That’s healthy eating.

See the difference in the intention? 

Or am I just spouting nonsensical gibberish?  Probably.  I wouldn’t be surprised.

Either way, yesterday opened by eyes to the fact that I’m making a lifestyle change.  Sure, it’s a little regimented right now, but that’s what I need to do in order to get to a place where by body feels its best.  I have a healthy mindset, so no day is viewed as a “bad” day, but instead as a day packed with extra deliciousness.

Yum.